Hump Day

So many things going through my little head this week.
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Izzy is still dealing with Lyme. We had to go back to the vet 'cause symptoms were back.
She is back on medication.  A whopping $69.52 was the Costco discount price for her medication. Jeez. That is some discount isn't it?
Within 2 days of medication we see the difference. She wants to run and play more.
I think this affects her joints and that is the reason she won't walk or run much. 
Her fever is gone. I feel badly that she will have to deal with this her whole life.
We (vet and us) feel that this is the Lyme rearing it's head because of her symptoms but they did a panel of blood work so we are awaiting the results of those. We should hear from them today or tomorrow. I just hate her sad sick puppy eyes. She puts her head in your lap and looks at you as if to say, "help me please!" But she is a lovey dovey dog when she's sick and part of me loves that. Bad mommy.
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I am trying to get through a book for my book club that is an okay book.
Not a great book but not a bad one either. Just an okay book.
It's is written in a style that reminds me of a person  who just took a writing class. 
I am chomping at the bit to get started on 2 others that I have that are both highly recommended as well as highly acclaimed.
Last night while reading the required book I was so tempted to toss it and grab one of the other 2 instead. I plugged away and took a lot of intervals to look at the TV screen to see the baseball game.
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There was a young girl who's blog I read for a long time. She was a feisty young thing trying to find her way in the world. She and I talked off line and developed a friendship. Then she stopped writing. I wrote to her once and never heard from her. I knew she had moved to another state and was trying to get her sea legs so I didn't persist. I wish I had.
I found out that she passed away this past weekend. It is haunting me.

I know what you're thinking, you didn't really know her.
But I feel I did. And if not then by gosh she touched my heart then.
I have said this before that the friends I have made on the blog are real.
They aren't "pretend" friends as strangers may think.
These friends send me words to pick me up.
They write me kind thoughtful emails asking about me.
They aren't so self consumed that when you ask them a question for your sake they don't turn it around and make it about themselves.
I won't link them here but they know who they are.
Tammie and Jenny are two blogger buddies that have been there for me through some dark times.  Both have read between the lines and instinctively knew I needed that call or email and just reached out, sent gifts to cheer me and to lift me when I needed it most. They knew me enough to know it was a dark time. Isn't that the definition of a friend?  So called friends who see me physically weren't as thoughtful or that much of a friend.

This all came flooding back to me when I heard about the young woman's passing.
I wish I had continued to try to reach her. I know I told her how terrific she was but oh I don't know what.... I just am having a hard time with this.
I don't have facebook and that is how others knew of her diagnosis and passing.
I have rebelled and rebelled loudly against stupid facebook but if it means I have to do facebook I may just have to do it.
Damn you Facebook.