I know I don't talk a lot about it here. I may have discussed it 2 times.
Is there anything worse than people going on and on about their illness or aches and pains?
I don't want to do that to you but....
I continue to deal with some illness issues and there are days it just gets to me.
I try very hard to be upbeat all the time and count my blessings but today isn't one of them.
For some reason the last couple of days have thrown me off my game...so much so that I am looking forward to going back to the doctor in a couple of weeks.
I am having some serious difficulty sleeping, which is a separate issue.
That tends to magnify everything I find.
I would give anything for 8 hours of deep sleep that allows you to wake up refreshed.
It's been years. It does wear you down. I swear it makes you feel older.
Why is it that when you're a kid you don't want to sleep and you sure can - for days.
Now I long to sleep more than 2 hours!
Right now the dog is snoring at my feet and I am envious beyond words.
Yesterday I was not nice to someone.
She was incredibly rude, nasty and down right mean for no reason except I think she may have thought that was how to get what she wanted.
But even though she was like that I shouldn't have snap back at her.
I apologized immediately but that doesn't matter I did it.
Unfortunately that stuck with me as I lay in bed listening to my husbands breathing and my dog snoring. I wonder if this mean woman let that bother her? Why can't I let it go?
Here I am still thinking about it because it made me feel like shit about myself.
Yea, I wonder about a lot of dumb stuff while trying to sleep.
I wonder about why when you are 20 something and dumb as a box of hair you have a rockin' body. Why can't you have that rockin' body once you gain some smarts so on your 40th birthday you have it all going on for yourself?
You start with saggin' boobs and by 40 they are pert and lovely.
Wouldn't that be a better way to go?
Makes your 40th birthday something to look forward to as it should be.
I wonder why George Clooney keeps coming to DC and never once has called me?
I've said before I'd give him a ride from the airport to the city - no charge.
I wonder whether my blog would look better with a white clean background than blue?
I seriously don't understand how in the very early 80's as technology began to take over we believed the rheotoric that it would give us more free time and simplify our lives.
Has it done any of that for you? People seem more frazzeled than ever.
Or do we just place more emphasis on inanimate objects more than life and people around us? I don't think those that are addicted to their technology know they are addicted and like any addiction they are blind to it. I am seeing it with some friends and family.
They can't go a minute without checking their emails, FB, their phone messages or whatever.
To be still. No technology.
That has become a lost art and it is apparent if we choose to see it.
Why can we no longer be still? I am guilty as well.
Has this become an old fashioned notion like the TV with only 3 channels?
If your boobs have fallen does that make you too old to understand this, is that my issue?
Yea that is some of the shit that goes through my head while I can't sleep.
What do you think about?
5 comments:
I am so with you on starting out with not-so-hot bodies that turn into rockin' bods by the time we hit 40! Mother Nature sure did screw us over on that one, didn't she? Whoever said youth is wasted on the young knew what they were talking about.
The sad irony about giving as good as you got to that nasty woman was that she probably didn't give it another thought afterwards. People who behave badly seldom get their knickers in a twist over others' bad behavior. It only strengthens their belief that she who behaves badly gets what she wants. Take off the hair shirt, put down the lash and stop losing sleep over that waste of oxygen - cut yourself some slack. You're human. She's a bitch. Coulda happened to the best of us.
I went through a really rough patch a number of years ago after I couldn't have another baby, and sleep eluded me much of the time. My therapist recommended an over-the-counter product called Simply Sleep from the makers of Tylenol. It's non-narcotic and non-habit forming. Taken with a glass of milk (the calcium intensifies the soporific effect)and I was out for a good 8 hours of restorative sleep. I took it for almost two years. I stopped using it about three years ago once I made what peace I could with my situation.
Hope it helps!
i'm sooooo behind on my blog reading. i'm gonna try to get all caught up this week.
so, i don't think you need to beat yourself up over snapping at the rude chick. we all snap from time to time. besides she started it ;)
don't be mad at me, but i generally don't have any trouble sleeping. i don't lie there and think about anything really, i'm usually out as soon as my head hits the pillow. this could be a result of copious amounts of alcohol though...just sayin
i agree with ducky. the rude chick probably deserved it. but i also know how you feel. whenever im mean to someone i feel like a jerk afterwards. even if they were an asshole and deserved it.
when i was in my 20's i was soooo skinny and i covered it all up thinking i was fat. WTF!?? id give anything for that body now.
also...are you sure george has your number? i know i keep giving mine to alec and he never calls. im sure he's just misplaced the number. men can be so flaky. :)
Hmmmm.....maybe he did lose my number. I am listed online, yellow pages old school everywhere he could find me. He's seeing that other damn Italian slut now though!
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