Long Time No See.

Hello fellow bloggers.
I am still hanging in there and today I have the energy to come to this site and write.

I am in the middle of tests. Funny how you go to the doctor for one thing and they find a few other things that need attention. Apparently, there is a lump in my neck. Who knew? I didn't much care. I was there to discuss my other issues.

She was persistent though and her cold hands kept feeling around my neck and throat until she asked, you don't feel this? Nope. This doesn't hurt you?  Nope. So apparently it concerns her and I have to have a scan on it Friday. Yipee.
But that is not what I was there for. We still have to deal with that issue. Stop finding new things, I'm old and falling apart, there are always new things. I don't need to look for them!

So I am plugging along.
When I have answers I will tell you.
But right now it just sounds like an old person chatting about her aches and pains and who the hell needs that? I don't!   So in the meantime, I am feeling a bit better and wish to bother ya'll.

I've had to take some muscle relaxers. 
They should be called pass out meds.
Oh my goodness if I take them I can't be awake, just won't happen. Within minutes I am out like a light. I told Rick I wanted to wait to take it.  
He was not in agreement with me. You see if he sees me in pain he wants to try to "fix" everything. He drives me nuts. I know it is so kind of him to care for me but honestly, he is a bit overbearing.  
He has this need to "fix".  It's a male thing. I get it but....

He brought me some soup and he sat on the bed and said, "Do you need more pillows, do you have your pills up here? Where is the heating pad? And the list of questions goes on. He runs around me in a swirl and I had to ask him to stop and sit. I explained that I appreciate all his attention, but you can't fix me, I'll get there, just help along the way babe is all I need. He can't help himself. I told him I would tell him if I needed something and for him to try to relax. It appears to be impossible until I am well. Now that I can be out of bed, you'd think he would stop. But no, until all tests are done and I am back to myself he won't be stopping.

I recall when we were young and just starting out I would bitch about something and he would tell me to do this or that. 
But you see, I wasn't asking him about what to do. 
I handled it. I wanted to vent. So I had to explain to him I just need to vent and you just need to listen. You don't have to "fix" everything. 
So here it was again while I'm sick. So I reminded him of this issue from 30 yrs ago and he laughed and realized he was doing it now and said he can't promise but he'll try to not "fix" it.  I reminded him that he can't fix me. He said, "I know that is what is bothering me most. I hate seeing you in pain and I want to fix that"

God love him. I get him. I really do. I don't always like what he's doing but I get why he is doing it. Like a parent, he is doing it with love and I'm pretty damn lucky to have him in my life to love me and annoy the shit out of me.  
And he's doing a damn fine job of both. 😋