I disabled my facebook account. When someone asked me where I went I told them living here in the real world.
I found it was sucking my soul. Besides the obvious trump bullshit that made my blood boil I just had to walk away. I walked away from the news and now facebook. You'd think that would stop me from knowing what is going on. Sadly that isn't so. My husband likes to keep me informed even when I put my two hands over my ears. He's helpful like that.
Facebook makes me vomit at times. Ah, look at me I'm doing this. Hey, look at my wife and kids because I am a good family man....who is cheating on that beautiful wife. Hey look at me I'm having a perfect life, perfect kids and my home is also perfect. Insert vomit.
If only they all lived like their facebook accounts say they do. Mine is ugly, messy and just like here, my life. I don't have a perfect anything!
Right now I am dealing with a step mom who is losing it. My father is being cared for by her and as you all know he has dementia. I spoke to her on Sunday. (she is 74) She told me that Carol was going to retire after this year. We went on to discuss why she is doing this now and Carol's trip to Florida etc. Then after I mentioned that she may wish to move to Florida since all of her children have moved there she said, "Hey did you know that Carol is going to retire after this year?"
Oh my goodness, here we go again. She has been doing this a great deal and she is scaring me.
After my father dies who will care for my step mother? Getting her to leave that big house that is falling down around her has been a big bone of contention for us all. We have tried to get her to downsize. But she won't. So now she will need assisted living from the looks of things after Dad passes. And if I were being honest with you I am doubtful that he will live past this year. So what do we do with mom? She can live alone if someone is nearby - like next door. And only for a short time.
I have asked her to move here and she has said no many many times.
I give up on it. I also get that while I am her "daughter" she married my father and I was part of the package deal. Her daughter, her firstborn is out west. She keeps telling me she doesn't want to go there because all of her friends are "here" where she lives. But she has no friends so I don't know who these people are. When you ask her she laughs.
I tend to get stuck with all family issues, be it financial support, emotional support, etc. I have been the go-to for them all of my life. But now I would like all sisters to step up. In particular my step mom's oldest daughter. She has gotten off the hook for years because she was out west and she had her own family. Yes, for some reason because I didn't have my own children everyone thinks I should do it then. I just can't financially right now take this on my own. We all need to step up to the plate and figure out a fair way of taking care of mom. I recently suggested we have a meeting and figure it all out. I am fearful of what this will all become.
See it just sucks to get older. I want to be a kid some days and have no responsibilities or to worry about anything other than getting a good grade in Algebra. Which I might add never happened, If it weren't for math I would have had straight A's. Damn math!