Thursday, February 14, 2013

February Doldrums

Every February I feel like crap.

February can be a bit more dreary here. I'm tired of the cold, oh so tired of being cold.
I know I must remember this when it's 90 degrees with 90% humidity.
Must remember this feeling of my cold numb fingers typing on my key board.

My skin is constantly cold unless I am under blankets of late.
Rick grabbed my face yesterday to kiss me and said, "My God woman you are like ice."
No shit.   I don't know what this new phenom is with me.

All of my life I was the person who was warm. I am still that girl that likes to sleep in a room that is cold as a meat locker but otherwise I want to be warm. I can never get warm lately. 
This is so new to me. And I don't like it much. Although being cold is still better than being warm or hot all the time. I just keep putting on my more clothes. Can't take off more clothes.
No one will allow me to walk the dog like that!

Also in February as I look in the mirror to put on my face it looks so pale.
I need color.  No, not blush, just all over a bit of color so I look alive.
I bet February is the highest travel month for snow birds to head south.
While I don't have snow I am pale and my legs alone could be seen at night with the lights out they are so pale and shockingly white.  I got a new pair of shorts to work out in and when I put them on the stark black against my stark white legs was as Rick said, "blinding"
Guess I won't wear them until the sun hits these legs first.  May be a long while then.

I had a spray tan once. She made my feet so dark they looked dirty and I could only wear socks and shoes until it went away. It was dreadful and it made Rick laugh and laugh. The ass.
I looked ridiculous and he had the right to laugh I suppose.
If it hadn't been me I'd have laughed too.

Thankfully February is a short month.
March means spring right?  Right? Can you hear me March?
Cherry Blossoms are normally in March.

I want warm. 65 degrees would be perfection right now.
I want to plant flowers. I want to plant some herbs.
I want to put the hummingbird feeder out again and watch those little suckers circle.
Spring can you hear me?

10 comments:

Mamma has spoken said...

Some of my spring flowers have been showing their heads since January. My fear is that they will get nipped by the cold and I won't have their beauty come March.
Though I will say, January seemed to drag like a funeral march for me and February is moving almost in that slow of pace.

Margaret (Peggy or Peg too) said...

Bonnie - yes they are moving at a snails place and why is that? February and August are my two least favorite months. I have only weeds in my garden, no little tips of any flowers. :-(

Arnebya said...

Unfortunately, our tulips came up in late January. One of our magnolia trees started to bloom but now it sits with half open flowers that look so brown and sad like whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy winter? Why are you doing this (and now I'm giggling b/c everytime I say why like that I hear Nancy Kerrigan and it's not funny (but it's kinda soooooooo damn funny.))

And yeah, February sucks. I'm a heat lover so I am knotted up and tight all winter. I walk around my house in a robe 24/7 in winter or draped in blankets drinking tea, sitting by the radiator wondering just what I need to do to get a little bit of warmth.

Margaret (Peggy or Peg too) said...

Arnebya - this morning I am in fleece AND a robe and hunched over (my damn back) holding on to my coffee mug while standing in front of the fireplace. Beautiful picture huh? Old frozen woman, that's me.
And the Nancy kerrigan comment made me laugh out loud. perfect.

Carolyn said...

i used to sweat all the time. Like dead of winter, and i was covered. I even would have to wear shirts under my clothes to soak up sweat. Once I started to get in shape, it changed completely. Now I'm the girl always cold with ice cold hands. It's crazy and I hate it. I am miserable and cold all the time this winter. I cannot wait for the spring to come!!

regan said...

I'm so sorry you're cold....I have a friend whose fingers are literally blue all winter long! Dang!

Go get some Jergen's Natural Glow lotion.....it's great! It won't turn you orange....it's just a slight little bit of color. I use it all winter long, and it keeps me from being fish-belly white!

Hope your back gets better soon!

Margaret (Peggy or Peg too) said...

Carolyn, but don't you prefer being cold to hot all the time? I do although just being comfortable would be great.

Regan - I just bought some and hopefully I can put this on and not look streaked. I am exactly that fish belly white. My niece is the color of Halle Berry - it's a beautiful mocha color and I tell her all the time the rest of we white girls want to look like her!

Mike said...

The crocus are popping up around here. And it was warm enough in St. Louis yesterday that we played golf.

Bilbo said...

My spring order has been in since November, and I think it got lost in the mail. Maybe I can get Agnes to make you a quilt...

Mom Taxi Julie said...

Maybe you could do a tanning booth. I've never done it but I bet it feels fabulous when you can't get warm!

It was beautiful here yesterday and I worked in the yard! Probably almost 70!